Tuesday, November 13, 2007
O's Officially O-V-E-R Over!

yep! it's over~!

I am happy.
I am elated.
I am spirited.
I am joyous.
I am exhilarated.
I am jubilant.
I am euphoric.
I am glowing.
I am smiling.
I am gleeful.

...NOT!!!!!!

my heart feels heavy-laden. help~~ LORD!
i feel so lost.

the holidays are here, it's time for fun and play!
i'll be going to a chalet with friends to have fun and also astonishingly, my mom has allowed me to stay overnight. besides, i'll be attending my cousin's wedding and Christmas would be arriving soon. and i MIGHT go on vacation to genting. i'm gonna go shopping, watch awesome movies, go bowling etc etc...

BUT...i'm still feeling empty inside.

1) i have been lacking in faith.

2) i keep dwelling on the past. the infliction of pain by someone who was so close to my heart and whom i trusted so much is simply too shocking and grieving. i am now emotionally ill and tired. i feel...FRIED.

3) i now have to fret over how to clear up my room. there's so much stuff around that i don't know where to start.

4) i'm expected to do the housework now that i have no school, no exams, no homework.

5) my dream is to compose music. don't laugh at me. before u learn to run, u need to learn to walk. so i need musical knowledge. learning how to play a musical instrument would be the baby step towards my dream. i have an interest in both guitar and piano. but i choose piano. don't ask why.
so i might sign up for piano classes anytime soon. any recommendations?

6) i have one big ZIT on my face right now. *pouts* i shall coop myself up at home til it's gone.