Thursday, November 15, 2007
the story of my day

the almighty thunder hollered loudly outside. within seconds, bright streaks of lightning began to cut through the vast infinite grey sky like a giant fork. the rain poured heavily and the great forces of the wind made the trees sway as if they were dancing in the rain.

the 16-yr-old obscured herself in her bedroom, shutting the windows and letting down the window blinds. she was mildly phonophobic but the girl still loved rainy afternoons despite her fear of the thunderous sounds. it was perfect for catnaps.

the weather made her day gloomy with melancholy. she starts to get upset.
"how did it come to this?", she thought to herself.
life was going all well and swell for her, then it all crumbled down abruptly like the world trade center. nobody saw it coming. sometimes life pats you on the back and calls you it's friend, before you know it, it strikes you from behind, leaving you lying on the ground, helpless, incapacitated, lost.

she felt all bitter inside. despondently, she sat by her bed, letting the misery eat her inside out. she knew she couldn't go on like this. it's stupefying to her how she conforms to it. where was the girl who wouldn't let such pain enshroud her mind? perhaps she had given up fighting. her heart and soul was already exhausted and dispirited.

the teenager pondered over the meaning of life while she stared blankly at the wall. a menacing-looking blade protruded from her lifeless heart, which was barely beating.
move along, break away, let go, forget, a voice inside her spoke. she tried to. however, the emotional anguish was far too overwhelming.

they say time can heal the pain, but it's more like numb the pain. it wouldn't fade away, but you no longer pay attention to it. like a scar.

she was waiting...waiting for the day when life would be kinder and befriend her again. she believed God would one day lift her spirits up again and shower her with his fullness and love. He would breathe life into her and she would be BORN AGAIN. then, everything would be alright. then, nothing could bring her down anymore. she needed to shine and begin pursuing her dreams. but how and where would she start? the world seemed black and sinister. what if she hits an iceberg along the way once more and sink away like titanic?

well, life still moves on, even when the heart needs a rest.

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yeah...it's dramatic.